LOVE... the only thing, worth anything.

A couple years ago I went on a reading tour in response to a huge creative blockage I was experiencing. I had outgrown the obligatory trauma poetry and quite frankly I was tired of writing only from the perspective of what has happened to me; but what else did I have? 

So I read. About 7-10 books in hopes of finding something outside of pain worth exploring. 

Fast forward and I have found Love. Love is the only thing worth dissecting, the one concept I could spend eternity of many lifetimes exploring, to not make a dent in the subject matter yet be utterly satisfied. Love was the one thing I had been starving to experience more of. Somehow I realized it wasn’t only within my purpose to create, excavating as much about love as I could; it was my design. My soul’s incarnation is to be the Right Angle Cross of the Vessel of Love. The physical embodiment of Love. 

While I’m still learning about what this purpose means in Human Design terms, I do know one thing for sure, Love is the answer to any question and the solution to any problem. This is my philosophy. While I am eager to spend the rest of my life unearthing this fundamental truth, a young almost 30 year old me, doesn’t know if romantic love is worth pursuing now or in the foreseeable future. This wouldn’t be a problem if I didn’t devote my life to love. For how is one to devote one’s life to the study, participation, and observation of love without exploring it intimately through the lens of romance? One doesn’t; if one does they will only choose to explore the depth of theory and I do not simply intend to theorize about love. I intend to embody it and articulate through that embodiment. 

While I do still desire romantic love, I am clear that my life is not fit to prioritize another person. I am focused on myself and my own dreams and desires. So for now that leaves a love philosopher like myself observing and theorizing about love in hopes that I can unearth foundational truths which would allow me to be more wise and responsible in future relationships; of all kinds.