Peeks from behind the closet

Aaaannnnnnddd, I’M BACK! 

And better than ever with a lot more wisdom to share. I needed to disappear, sometimes disappearing is a necessary part of being able to integrate more seamlessly and with more to offer. Disappearing is always a moment for me to listen to my soul and adjust my sails. That work is no one’s business but mine; since I’m back though I want to share some life updates in the form of life lessons. 

This [past] season was all about getting clear and specific on a plan and where my life was at and if that plan was taking me in the direction I wanted to go. It sounds super simple, but honestly, it was really hard. I don’t know if you know but at the end of the day, this is YOUR life and it will be everything YOU make it. So when sh*t ain’t going how you want to, there is no one that is going to change it but you; and if that ain’t a hard [yet liberating] pill to swallow, I don’t know what is. 

This new season is all about STICKING TO THE F**KIN PLAN! This is something I am getting better at, simply because I get distracted so easily, however coming out of my 20s has asked me; where the hell am I in such a rush to get to? Why do I feel like I won’t have time to follow the plan? So in the spirit of slowing down as a way to be more intentional and thorough, I am slowly but surely doing some life [re]alignment.

Also, the last time I was here, I was dating someone. Well, that has since ended and although it was brief, the heartbreak has not been. I’m grateful for her presence and absence, as well as everything she has left me to further cultivate within myself. All that to say, we are all simply experiencing each other and each one of us is a conduit for a lesson someone else needs to learn. This has allowed me to not take the recent [dis]connection so personally and not internalize it as something insufficient within me. To say I love hard, completely, and deeply would be the understatement of a lifetime. However to know, that I should not dilute my love simply because of others’ inability to comprehend, receive, or reciprocate; is the lesson of the year. Love hard, all this shit is temporary. 

And what I am coming to learn is that for most of us, the beginning of our 30s is all about cleaning up the messes we were supposed to make in our 20s and that cleaning up is a lesson in itself. And at this point, I’ve resigned myself to that, and knowing that ‘this too shall pass’ is a much-needed relief. 

All that to say, I’m working, growing, evolving, and striving to make my 30s MUCH BETTER than my 20s. 

Cheers to reflection and growth! 

P.S. Even though I haven’t been here in a while, I am consistently releasing weekly new episodes on my podcast Spirituaiteay. Have a listen if you want more regular insight into my soul.