Get Real About the Real
I’ve been having difficulty writing blog posts from where I am currently in my life. I'm using reflection as a tool to squeeze wisdom out as if there isn’t wisdom in this very moment.
Let's be real! Right now, I’m in a place in my life where I feel deeply that I am where I am supposed to be and yet, there is so much uncertainty I feel being here as if perhaps I am not doing enough or somewhere have done the wrong thing to be here, feeling like I have been waiting forever for my harvest. If I am being honest, I feel a bit stuck; which I'm sure is in my head because I tend to conflate rest with stuck and that is not what it is at all. All I can do is remain consistent with the work I have to do. Keep progressing in my projects and most importantly TAKE MY TIME. I have time, I am on no one else’s time but my own. I know that just because I don’t see any growth happening, doesn't mean it isn’t happening. I know that everything happens in divine timing. I know that what is for me will NOT miss me. And yet, none of these make what feels like a period of limbo any easier.
One thing I am actively working on is slowing down, and as challenging as that has been, I have learned so much in such a short amount of time. The strongest insight of which being that I hold infinite gratitude to my Spirit guides for lovingly nudging me into a more holistic way of living, one that suits me and my creative practice.
I have learned:
When you slow down, you create more space to enjoy the moment that you are in. This moment will not happen again in this way and there is beauty in that.
Slowing down has been an endurance builder, especially in the gym. Not rushing and moving too quickly has allowed me to better temper my energy and push through on tasks.
The work will get done; whether you’re rushing or moving with ease and deliberation. One just tends to be a bit more stressful on the psyche.
Slowing down has surprisingly allowed me to be more in control of my time and use it in ways that honor where I am that day and how I would like to spend my day.
Slowing down allows me to act more deliberately and with more power in my movement(s).
Slowing has alleviated some of the anxiety caused by mental traffic. I can think a bit more clearly.
Slowing down has allowed me to find a center and gratitude in the present and also honor what I need and am feeling in each moment.
Although this journey of flowing a bit more fluidly has just begun, it has already proven to align and be very helpful to my life. And right now I am remaining in preparation by not moving so fast that I pass up my abundance, which I tend to do. Walking in faith can sometimes feel a bit like walking blind, temporarily. Once everything comes into focus, I’ll be back with what I’ve found in flow.
Much Love & Gratitude
Peace